sometimes... it sets me wondering.. have changed at all since i committed my life to Christ through the holy spirit and the salvation prayer? Well in actual fact i did.. i can see the miracles of God changing me in major parts of my life. But... sometimes.. i feel that i have not changed at all. The truth is, i feel very at lost sometimes. Im still imperfect and will always be. And im very aware that i have this particular problem, that.. i don't know how to present myself before strangers. I can tell you very confidently that if you don't know me well enough, one look at me and you will think im someone with an attitude problem.. that, im someone who is not the perfect friend for anyone of you. I got that alot of times.. infact, people from sch think of me as an arrogent freak. The worse thing is that, i ball.. YES, i ball.. infact, not just balling, i play streetball.. something which people in singapore don't appreciate its art. "its flashy! Arrogent people play it, they are for DOGS. YES! they taint the beautiful game itself." I got that serveral times... the greatest insult i ever got was today. i got spat on. i admit i did make a couple of embarrasing moves on them after they critized me. I didn't know what to do. I.. i was just a show off.. yes...
Lord u gave me the body that im in, u gave me the talents that i bore. u gave me the attitude that i adopt. Most importantly, u presented me with the Holy Spirit.. which lingers inside me. Lord.. all i ask for is you to fulfill just one promise.. that is you will provide if we ask. Lord protect my family members. Protect my loved ones.. Protect everyone that was every close to me. My church family, my sch mates.. Whatever happens to me, i don't care... i only care about their safety..